Don’t. Please just stop and don’t. You’ve been doing so well. You were happy. You are happy and you will continue to do well. Obviously something happened that is making you want to relapse but forget it. And I know, easier said than done, but stop and just think. How long did it take you to feel happy? How much longer will it take if you relapse right now? Oh, but how close you are to making it… You are stronger than you believe. You want to know how I know that? Because I believe in you and I know that you are strong. I don’t care if I don’t know you or if you are anonymous, I know that you are strong because you are doing so well and are feeling happier and because you came to talk to me. You don’t want to do this and I really don’t want you to either. I want you to recover and I know that you want that too. But you need to stop dwelling on the past and whatever it is that is making you hurt and want to relapse and think of the future. Think of a time when you won’t be saying that you are feeling happier, but you are feeling happy. And sure, you can get there if you relapse now, but think of the time that you spent after trying to get to the point where you are now. I can’t force you to do anything but I please implore you to stop and think of how much you have accomplished and how close you are to making it. I love you and I never want you to hurt yourself.